SGA: Unmanifest Destiny by vain_glorious
Nov. 29th, 2025 10:28 pmFandom: Stargate Atlantis
Characters/Pairings: John Sheppard, Rodney McKay, Ronon Dex, Teyla Emmagan, Sam Carter
Rating: Unrated. I'd say, Teen.
Length: 8260
Content Notes: The author chose not to warn.
Creator Links: vain_glorious on AO3
Themes: Mystery and suspense, Road trips, Team, Friendship, AU: fork in the road
Summary: Following the events of 5X01, Team Sheppard goes to Earth and takes a roadtrip across the US.
Reccer's Notes: The team, plus newborn Torren, are back in the USA, travelling across the country and stopping at all John's favourite attractions. It should be a fun time, but they're all in unhappy moods and John can't get them to perk up at all. As the story progresses, we become aware that something's off, but it's hard to figure out what. The mystery's finally made clear in a possibly hopeful ending, depending on your point of view. It's not for those who don't like any darkness in their fics, but there's great characterisation and it's very well written, surprisingly funny at times, and the ending is powerful.
Fanwork Links: Unmanifest Destiny
Characters/Pairings: John Sheppard, Rodney McKay, Ronon Dex, Teyla Emmagan, Sam Carter
Rating: Unrated. I'd say, Teen.
Length: 8260
Content Notes: The author chose not to warn.
If you'd much rather know about major AO3 warnings and be spoiled for the reveal at the end, click the arrow at left. SPOILERS
John has died and it's his ghost or semi-ascended self keeping the team company on their memorial road trip. He's kind of in denial about this until the end, after which he ascends.Themes: Mystery and suspense, Road trips, Team, Friendship, AU: fork in the road
Summary: Following the events of 5X01, Team Sheppard goes to Earth and takes a roadtrip across the US.
Reccer's Notes: The team, plus newborn Torren, are back in the USA, travelling across the country and stopping at all John's favourite attractions. It should be a fun time, but they're all in unhappy moods and John can't get them to perk up at all. As the story progresses, we become aware that something's off, but it's hard to figure out what. The mystery's finally made clear in a possibly hopeful ending, depending on your point of view. It's not for those who don't like any darkness in their fics, but there's great characterisation and it's very well written, surprisingly funny at times, and the ending is powerful.
Fanwork Links: Unmanifest Destiny
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Nov. 28th, 2025 10:03 pmMeme nabbed from
sushiflop, who also has the coded text if you want to do the meme yourself.
Go to your Works page on AO3, look at the tags, and see what the answers to these questions are. (Or any other site that has tags)
1. What rating do you write most fics under? Teen and up. Basically anything with a "fuck" gets marked at least teen, whatever else is in it.
2. What are your top 3 fandoms?
What's listed are Buffy, Hockey RPF, and SPN, but if I go to the MCU page, which includes all my fics that are in MCU subfandoms, that has the most works of any of my fandoms at 95.
3. What is your top character you write about?
Sidney Crosby with 33 fics. Still, all these years later!
4. What are the 3 top pairings?
Sid/Geno (hockey, 24 fics), Liam/Noel (Oasis, 23), and Spike/Buffy (BtVS, 14). Yes indeed, those are my OTPs. <3 Fourth is Dan/Herbert from Re-Animator, which feels right as well.
Despite writing a shit ton of MCU fic, I was too much of a multishipper for any of my ships to threaten the top here. My highest was Carol/Yon-Rogg, and I only wrote 8 for them.
5. What are the top 3 additional tags?
Drabble (64), mpreg (50 jfc), and hurt/comfort (29). Zero percent surprised by the first two, but I'm a little surprised by the h/c count. I don't tend to think of myself as a h/c writer. However, I do like writing things that contain h/c, and I guess I'm good at tagging it when it applies...
6. Did any of this surprise you? e.g. what turned out to be your top tag.
I only need to write two more Gallaghercest fics for that to be my top ship! To be fair a bunch of the existing ones are less than 1k long, so Sid/Geno probably still wins by wordcount, but OTOH one of those Gallaghercest fics was 40k, so maybe not.
Go to your Works page on AO3, look at the tags, and see what the answers to these questions are. (Or any other site that has tags)
1. What rating do you write most fics under? Teen and up. Basically anything with a "fuck" gets marked at least teen, whatever else is in it.
2. What are your top 3 fandoms?
What's listed are Buffy, Hockey RPF, and SPN, but if I go to the MCU page, which includes all my fics that are in MCU subfandoms, that has the most works of any of my fandoms at 95.
3. What is your top character you write about?
Sidney Crosby with 33 fics. Still, all these years later!
4. What are the 3 top pairings?
Sid/Geno (hockey, 24 fics), Liam/Noel (Oasis, 23), and Spike/Buffy (BtVS, 14). Yes indeed, those are my OTPs. <3 Fourth is Dan/Herbert from Re-Animator, which feels right as well.
Despite writing a shit ton of MCU fic, I was too much of a multishipper for any of my ships to threaten the top here. My highest was Carol/Yon-Rogg, and I only wrote 8 for them.
5. What are the top 3 additional tags?
Drabble (64), mpreg (50 jfc), and hurt/comfort (29). Zero percent surprised by the first two, but I'm a little surprised by the h/c count. I don't tend to think of myself as a h/c writer. However, I do like writing things that contain h/c, and I guess I'm good at tagging it when it applies...
6. Did any of this surprise you? e.g. what turned out to be your top tag.
I only need to write two more Gallaghercest fics for that to be my top ship! To be fair a bunch of the existing ones are less than 1k long, so Sid/Geno probably still wins by wordcount, but OTOH one of those Gallaghercest fics was 40k, so maybe not.
Daily Happiness
Nov. 28th, 2025 09:32 pm1. I had a nice morning at Disneyland today, but I am definitely glad I have two more days off to rest up! Tomorrow I am not going anywhere further than the farmers market.
2. Chloe!

2. Chloe!

2025 Disneyland Trip #74 (11/28/25)
Nov. 28th, 2025 09:22 pmDespite having spent all day yesterday at Universal Studios, I was up bright and early this morning to go to Disneyland.
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Buckwheat granola
Nov. 28th, 2025 09:01 pmI bought a bag of Bob's Red Mill buckwheat groats on impulse, and they've been sitting in the cabinet for a while. Today I looked at the back, and found this Buckwheat Granola recipe. I had enough ingredients on hand (without the nuts and seeds), and gave it a try.
Ingredients:
2 cups Gluten Free Old Fashioned Rolled Oats or Gluten Free Organic Rolled Oats
1 cup Buckwheat Groats
1 cup Sliced Almonds
1/4 cup Shelled Sunflower Seeds
1/4 cup Organic Pumpkin Seeds
2 Tbsp White Hulled Sesame Seeds
1/2 cup Coconut Flakes
1/2 cup Honey
1/2 cup Maple Syrup
1/4 cup Coconut Oil
1/2 tsp Ground Cinnamon
1/2 tsp Sea Salt
1 tsp Vanilla Extract
1/4 tsp Almond Extract
1 cup Dried Cranberries
( recipe )
Notes:
- I had the buckwheat, quick oats, shredded coconut, dried cranberries, and sweeteners. Turned out fine.
- I didn't have almond extract, but accidentally put in an extra slosh of vanilla extract. No problem.
- It is very very sweet, like making candy. For the future, I found this recipe from Katie Morford where the proportions look a little more like what I would want.
Ingredients:
2 cups Gluten Free Old Fashioned Rolled Oats or Gluten Free Organic Rolled Oats
1 cup Buckwheat Groats
1 cup Sliced Almonds
1/4 cup Shelled Sunflower Seeds
1/4 cup Organic Pumpkin Seeds
2 Tbsp White Hulled Sesame Seeds
1/2 cup Coconut Flakes
1/2 cup Honey
1/2 cup Maple Syrup
1/4 cup Coconut Oil
1/2 tsp Ground Cinnamon
1/2 tsp Sea Salt
1 tsp Vanilla Extract
1/4 tsp Almond Extract
1 cup Dried Cranberries
( recipe )
Notes:
- I had the buckwheat, quick oats, shredded coconut, dried cranberries, and sweeteners. Turned out fine.
- I didn't have almond extract, but accidentally put in an extra slosh of vanilla extract. No problem.
- It is very very sweet, like making candy. For the future, I found this recipe from Katie Morford where the proportions look a little more like what I would want.
For Sale: Nintendo Switch games
Nov. 28th, 2025 09:54 pmI've made this post a few times without any luck, but I wanted to try again just in case I have better luck this time. Would anyone be interested in any of the following Nintendo Switch games?
Pokémon: Let's Go, Pikachu! (example on Amazon)
Spyro Reignited Trilogy (example on Amazon)
TemTem (example on Amazon)
If you're not interested but know someone who might be, please point them my way. I'm about $65 shy of where I need to be to pay for my storage unit this month, because the universe hates me, and it would help a lot if I could manage to sell even one of them.
For payment, I have CashApp ($Settiai), PayPal, Venmo, or Zelle (nancy.lynn.foster@gmail.com).
Pokémon: Let's Go, Pikachu! (example on Amazon)
Spyro Reignited Trilogy (example on Amazon)
TemTem (example on Amazon)
If you're not interested but know someone who might be, please point them my way. I'm about $65 shy of where I need to be to pay for my storage unit this month, because the universe hates me, and it would help a lot if I could manage to sell even one of them.
For payment, I have CashApp ($Settiai), PayPal, Venmo, or Zelle (nancy.lynn.foster@gmail.com).
11/28/2025 Inspiration Trail // Cesar Chavez Park
Nov. 28th, 2025 05:30 pmIt's pretty cold these days, for here, but I managed to get myself up to Inspiration Trail dawnish. I'm not sure whether or not I'm glad I bothered. Fog on the ground and not too much wind, but the first time I got to the gate I turned back at once. I even started driving down the hill, but as soon as I'd rounded the first curve it was clear! So I went back, hung out for a while, saw no improvement, and decided to walk down to the dip to at least check out the mud. I didn't stay long; the mud was worse than I can tolerate, the fog was dripping from the trees like rain, and there wasn't enough activity to keep me there. Nine usual species. I'm not submitting a list.:) Again, as I drove down the hill the sky was clear. Sigh. To make up for it I went to Cesar Chavez in the afternoon, under clear skies. Not so very many more species (15) but very much more interesting ones. First bird I heard was an American Pipit, so that was fun. My reason for going there was to see what was offshore in North Basin with all the birds on it; I took a very good look and I still don't know. It's a long, flexible floating pipe, maybe? with a big, orange, heavy-looking.. something at the north end. There were about 120 Western Gulls, one Ring-billed Gull, and a few Double-crested Cormorants roosting on it. It certainly makes the gulls easy to sort through for something different. ( The list: )
Of course I intended to look for the Burrowing Owl, and two very kind ladies helped me find it. Once you see it, it's obvious, but until you do, it's invisible.:)
Of course I intended to look for the Burrowing Owl, and two very kind ladies helped me find it. Once you see it, it's obvious, but until you do, it's invisible.:)
The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Friday, November 29th
Nov. 29th, 2025 12:45 am
ANYA: You know, you were a lot more fun when you didn't have a soul.
SPIKE: Oh, come on. Now, I've just explained to you—
ANYA: All I'm saying is soulless Spike would have had me upside down and halfway to happy land by now.
[Drabbles & Short Fiction]
[Chaptered Fiction]
[Images, Audio & Video]
[Reviews & Recaps]
[Fandom Discussions]
SPIKE: Oh, come on. Now, I've just explained to you—
ANYA: All I'm saying is soulless Spike would have had me upside down and halfway to happy land by now.
~~Sleeper~~
[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

- The Fall Of It All by aboutafox (Buffy/Angel, G)
- Dungeon Crawl by KairosImprimatur (Buffy/Angel, G)
- No Rest for the (Formerly) Wicked by tnelsonriker (Lindsey, Wesley, Spike, not rated)
- A Hare-Raising Abduction by Anonymous (Willow/Buffy, multiple crossovers, E)
- In My Grasp by Geliot99 (Buffy/Spike, E)
- Celebration by none1832 (Buffy/Faith, M)
- Attachments by lilyelisabeth (Giles/Jenny, G)

- In My Grasp by Geliot99 (Buffy/Spike, R)
[Chaptered Fiction]

- Potential Friend: Season Two, Chapter 19 by srmcd1 (Buffy/Angel, T)
- Violin Violence, Chapter 7 by Laqt15 (Buffy/Spike, not rated)
- Second Time Is the Charm. That is The Saying, Right? Chapter 16 by Laqt15 (Spike/Andrew, T)
- Blood and Magic, Chapter 41 by Dyrla (vampire Willow/Spike/vampire Tara, E)
- An Accomplished Woman, Chapter 4 by Telperien (Buffy, T)
- Stuck in the Middle with You, Chapter 2 by Laqt15 (Riley/Spike, E)
- L'Etoile du Soir, Chapter 13 (complete!) by BrumeAutize (Buffy, Tolkien crossover, M. in French)
- The Tribrids First Thanksgiving, Chapter 2 by BlueBubbleBurst (Buffy/Angel, multiple crossovers, E)
- Twisted Fairy Tales, Chapter 1 by Laqt15 (Drusilla/Spike/Buffy, E)
- Darkness, Stakes and Brocade, Chapter 1 by Mellisbee (Buffy/Spike, M)
- Force of a Slayer, Chapter 1 by Fallinfromgrace (Buffy, Star Wars crossover, T)

- What Love Looks Like, Chapter 22 by DeamonQueen (Buffy/Spike, Adult Only)
- Fleur Emphemere, Chapter 11 by Maxine Eden (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)
- Feral Love, Chapter 20 by DearDeadDeer (Buffy/Spike, Adult Only)
- Father, Lead Us Not Into Temptation, Chapter 3 by YouCutYourHair (Buffy/Spike, PG-13)

- Summoned To Strixhaven: Schooling of Scoobies, Chapter 11 by JoshuAB (Scoobies, Dungeons and Dragons crossover, FR13)

- Revelations, Chapter 34 by Niamh (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)
[Images, Audio & Video]

- Artwork: Spike and Buffybot by rabbitmotifs (worksafe)
- Artwork: As i wait for my hair to bleach....have some more Spuffy by sanzosin (worksafe)
- Artwork/animation: an old lip sync to some buffy audio by pakchoys (worksafe)
- Gifs: I can't stop thinking about their little pouts at each other 😗 by toxicphangirl15 (Buffy/Spike, worksafe)

- Fanvid: Buffy & Angel | As Long As You're Mine by none1832
- Fanvid: Bangel | Nauseous (live) by leticia
- Fanvid: bangel : with or without you by Saviorinred
- Fanvid: Angel | Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel | I Love It (feat. Charli XCX) (Icona Pop) by Freya
- Fanvid: Willow/Tara Video 01 by Any Port In A Storm
- Fanvid: BTVS Tribute Video 01 by Any Port In A Storm
- Fanvid: Spike/Drusilla Video 01 by Any Port In A Storm
- Fanvid: Buffy, The Vampire Slayer - Thank You (Dido) - *Thanksgiving Day 2025 Video Special!* by Emma Boo
- Fanvid: Spike by Sam
- Fanvid: [Buffy] by lucy
- Roleplay/cosplay video: Giles from Buffy the Vampire Slayer meets Scooby Doo and the gang by Role Play Riot
[Reviews & Recaps]

- Video: Cheaters get caught! Spike Returns! Buffy S03E08 'Lovers Walk' | First time watch&reaction by All Bronze, No Brains
- Video: The Best of Buffy: Once More with Feeling by Captain Falco
- Video: Buffyverse Wild at heart - Sense &Sensitivity by Lord Toxic
- Video: The Night Buffy Changed Vampire Mythology Forever by Chill Exfoliations
- Podcast video: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Season Six, Episode Thirteen: Dead Things by Slayed! The Buffyverse Revisited Podcast
- Podcast video: Love, Lies & Angelus: Buffy Season 2 by OH!CAST - Your Island Gateway to all things Geek
- Podcast video: ABNB Bitesize - Beauty and the Beasts ft. Tabby from Becoming Buffy by All Bronze, No Brains
- Podcast video: Angel — The Vampire Boyfriend Era Begins by Must Be Tuesday: A Buffy Podcast
- Podcast video: BUFFY S3E1 "Anne" Review & Recap by Major Slayage - A Buffy Rewatch Podcast
- Podcast video: Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Season 5 Episode 15 - I Was Made to Love You by Sh*t 90s Shows Taught Me
- Podcast video: Bored Now A BTVS Podcast | Angel | With Alicia Cook by TheFinalGurl13
- Podcast video: Bonus Episode - Buffy Season 4 Recap - Games, Guesses, and Gjetost by The Sunnydale Diaries - A Buffy Podcast
- Podcast: The One With Jenny Calendar, Demon Chatrooms, and Buffy’s Three Birthdays - S1E8 by Buffy Babes Podcast
- Podcast: Buffy with the Besties #1 - Discussing Season 2 by Renegade Pop Culture
[Fandom Discussions]

- Poor Anya by Aphony Cree
- reading buffyverse fanfic is so hard cause you can’t read about one pairing without also reading another character you love getting bashed by greenfairys
- is there something in the comics that like makes it canon that willow’s parents were abusive? by kaizokuseb
- the thanksgiving episode by selkiemaidenfae
- thoughts on the headcanon that john hart is spike by captain-ghost
- HC of mine is that Faith thinks she has like. Peak fashion sense by fictiongods
- I hate the Willow and Oz thing by lukreziaaa
- jfc Dawn and Spike's relationship in s7... by mangio-formaggio
- What is this weird discourse I see pop up in the Buffy/Angel fandom revolving around “Angel loses all of his character development from his show whenever he returns to Sunnydale”? by white-kings-knight
- Poll: did spike draw those portraits by xaeyrnofnbe

- [Changing opinions about the comics] by Far-Wedding8656
- Chloé Zhao is Team Spike by Unlikely_Age_1395
- If there was something you would change about [Xander's] character, what would it be? by gloomydreamer666
- Hope the new show fixes vampires walking in the sun by merzhinhudour
- [Changing opinions on the comics, discussion 2] by Far-Wedding8656
- So about the chip… by oni_levi
- S07E21 End of Days — What happened to Miss Kitty Fantastico? by QuadrantMusic
- Did Spike believe Acathla was a very bad idea by voldy1989

- Video: The Buffy Show That NEVER AIRED! | Buffy The Vampire Slayer Explained by BuffyBot
- Video: Teen Romance: Buffy & Angel's Doomed Love, Spike Is A Bad Boy Romantic by On The Nerdy Side With Honey & Spanky
- Video: VAMPIRES Explained| Buffy The Vampire Slayer by andyarcane
- Video: Why Buffy Still Matters Today by Jack Antrobus
- Video: The Watcher’s Council: Friend or Foe? | Buffy The Vampire Slayer Explained by BuffyBot
- Video: TOP 5 MORTS DU BUFFYVERSE by Don Mickael
LBCF: Faith and reason
Nov. 28th, 2025 08:38 pmIn Left Behind, "faith" is good and "reason" and "intellect" are bad. But none of those words are used to mean what they normally mean.
[pain] a strong contender for The Worst Possible Hyphenation
Nov. 28th, 2025 08:56 pmSpotted in today's book, with just as much of a medical theme as you might reasonably expect:
... biopsy-
chosocial...
Book Review: The Director
Nov. 28th, 2025 03:13 pmMost of the time when I read book reviews in The Atlantic, I think “Mmmm, glad someone else read this so I don’t have to.” But when I read their review of Daniel Kehlmann’s The Director, I was like “I need this in my eyeballs NOW.”
The Director (translated from German by Ross Benjamin) is a novelized biography of G. W. Pabst, one of the most important directors in the post-World War I German film scene, most famous today for discovering Greta Garbo and Louise Brooks. (Diary of a Lost Girl with Louise Brooks is the one floating in my vague “I’d like to see that one day” mental cloud.)
After Hitler rose to power, Pabst left Germany and looked for work in Hollywood. He struggled to find work in America, returned to Europe not long before the outbreak of war, and ended up making films in Nazi Germany.
These are the basic outlines of Pabst’s life, and they’re a matter of historical record. From here on out, I’m going to be referring specifically to the Pabst of the book, who clearly has some points of divergence with the real Pabst. For instance: book!Pabst has a son of military age, who is clearly standing in for the experience of the Average German Youth, while the real Pabst’s baby son was born during the war.
Now clearly the central question of the book is, how do you go from hating a regime so much that you flee to another country to uneasily collaborating with it? Part of the answer being that Pabst, in his own mind, is not collaborating: he’s not making propaganda films, he’s making non-political films! And he just happens to be making them in, okay, Nazi Germany, but does making art under an evil regime necessarily make that art evil?
And, okay, yes, technically his films are funded by the Nazi film ministry because that’s the sole source of funding in Nazi Germany. But what if you’re taking the funds from the Nazi film ministry and making a film like Paracelsus, which has what might be taken as an anti-Nazi message…? The whole sequence where a madman starts dancing, and everyone else starts dancing in time with him……?
But, I mean. Is that an anti-Nazi message, or is that just Pabst fans trying to come up with a justification for why “made films for Nazi Germany” is not quite as bad as it looks?
And then you have Pabst’s next film, his lost Molander, based on a book by a Nazi party hack named Karrasch. (There’s a hilari-terrifying scene where Pabst’s wife finds herself in a book club entirely devoted to Karrasch, who sounds like Nazi Nicholas Sparks). The subject matter is foisted on Pabst, but he digs beneath the surface of the story till he can make the script his own, then heads to Prague to film it.
The city is being continually bombed, and the Soviets are getting closer every day. Pabst’s assistant Franz comments, “Don’t you find it strange, Pabst, that we’re making a movie like this in the middle of the apocalypse?”
“Times are always strange,” Pabst tells him. “Art is always out of place. Always unnecessary when it’s made. And later, when you look back, it’s the only thing that matters.”
They’re supposed to get a battalion of soldiers for extras, but the battalion is called away to the front right before they film. So - Pabst turns to the local concentration camp.
I should say that this is not a spoiler - we learn it in the first chapter - and also that Pabst’s concentration camp extras, specifically, are historical speculation. There really were directors who used concentration camp inmates as extras (famously Leni Riefenstahl), but there’s no evidence if Pabst used them in Molander, as the film really was lost. But that’s what everyone was doing to make up labor shortages. It’s plausible.
And Pabst tells his assistant, “All this madness, Franz, this diabolical madness, gives us the chance to make a great film. Without us, everything would be the same, no one would be saved, no one would be better off. And the film wouldn’t exist.”
Only in the end, the film is lost. So it doesn’t exist, after all.
The Director (translated from German by Ross Benjamin) is a novelized biography of G. W. Pabst, one of the most important directors in the post-World War I German film scene, most famous today for discovering Greta Garbo and Louise Brooks. (Diary of a Lost Girl with Louise Brooks is the one floating in my vague “I’d like to see that one day” mental cloud.)
After Hitler rose to power, Pabst left Germany and looked for work in Hollywood. He struggled to find work in America, returned to Europe not long before the outbreak of war, and ended up making films in Nazi Germany.
These are the basic outlines of Pabst’s life, and they’re a matter of historical record. From here on out, I’m going to be referring specifically to the Pabst of the book, who clearly has some points of divergence with the real Pabst. For instance: book!Pabst has a son of military age, who is clearly standing in for the experience of the Average German Youth, while the real Pabst’s baby son was born during the war.
Now clearly the central question of the book is, how do you go from hating a regime so much that you flee to another country to uneasily collaborating with it? Part of the answer being that Pabst, in his own mind, is not collaborating: he’s not making propaganda films, he’s making non-political films! And he just happens to be making them in, okay, Nazi Germany, but does making art under an evil regime necessarily make that art evil?
And, okay, yes, technically his films are funded by the Nazi film ministry because that’s the sole source of funding in Nazi Germany. But what if you’re taking the funds from the Nazi film ministry and making a film like Paracelsus, which has what might be taken as an anti-Nazi message…? The whole sequence where a madman starts dancing, and everyone else starts dancing in time with him……?
But, I mean. Is that an anti-Nazi message, or is that just Pabst fans trying to come up with a justification for why “made films for Nazi Germany” is not quite as bad as it looks?
And then you have Pabst’s next film, his lost Molander, based on a book by a Nazi party hack named Karrasch. (There’s a hilari-terrifying scene where Pabst’s wife finds herself in a book club entirely devoted to Karrasch, who sounds like Nazi Nicholas Sparks). The subject matter is foisted on Pabst, but he digs beneath the surface of the story till he can make the script his own, then heads to Prague to film it.
The city is being continually bombed, and the Soviets are getting closer every day. Pabst’s assistant Franz comments, “Don’t you find it strange, Pabst, that we’re making a movie like this in the middle of the apocalypse?”
“Times are always strange,” Pabst tells him. “Art is always out of place. Always unnecessary when it’s made. And later, when you look back, it’s the only thing that matters.”
They’re supposed to get a battalion of soldiers for extras, but the battalion is called away to the front right before they film. So - Pabst turns to the local concentration camp.
I should say that this is not a spoiler - we learn it in the first chapter - and also that Pabst’s concentration camp extras, specifically, are historical speculation. There really were directors who used concentration camp inmates as extras (famously Leni Riefenstahl), but there’s no evidence if Pabst used them in Molander, as the film really was lost. But that’s what everyone was doing to make up labor shortages. It’s plausible.
And Pabst tells his assistant, “All this madness, Franz, this diabolical madness, gives us the chance to make a great film. Without us, everything would be the same, no one would be saved, no one would be better off. And the film wouldn’t exist.”
Only in the end, the film is lost. So it doesn’t exist, after all.
